SNAP! I didn't write about graduation!!! Well let me tell you all about it!!!
So first of all I just checked my grades and I somehow pulled off all A's and B's. I was so surprised! I totally did not work hard, or go to class half of the time. I guess that just goes to show that if you do your best and do all your work you won't get below a b! Well at least in my case! I am seriously so lucky! So yay, I will really get a diploma! haha
Liz and I were the first to recieve our diploma's! It was so special! And Elder L. Tom Perry spoke, then we got to shake his hand!!! He is sooo tall! The whole day was radiant! I loved every minute of it. Devin said it's my day, and it's like having an extra birthday or christmas! hehe
It was so tender, when I was shaking the faculty's hands Brother Poemen gave me a big hug. :) So special. I am so happy to be done with school, and for all those wondering, I'm working the summer, then applying to the DATC in Kaysville hopefully I'll start in like September. :) I just love life right now, I'm just working and playing, no tests or homework to concern myself with! I love this feeling!
I want to send a special shout out to the friends and family that came to support me!!! It really meant a lot to me and helped make my special day even more special!!! Here are some amazing pics of the day!
The lesson the other day in Relief society was just what I needed to hear. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason as it is, but this lesson just made me realize how true that statement is. Not only for myself, but for my ancestors and posterity!
The lesson was about people who made seemingly small and meaningless decisions that ended up being the reason we are who we are today, or affected our membership in the church, ect. It really made me realize just how blessed I truly am. I was born into the church, and raised with great values by goodly parents just doing their best. I don't know where I'd be in life right now if I wasn't a member of the church. I know I would be a good person still, but I just wonder sometimes if I didn't have such high standards to live up to would I have slid towards the side of the adversary a bit?
The reason I am in Utah right now living on my own is in large based upon my childhood, and the family life I had. All of my life my mom encouraged me to pursue my dreams, and graduate college. I am a first generation college student in my family, and out of the 27 cousins I have only 3 of us have even attended college. I guess I always wanted to prove to myself and to my family that I can do it. Another thing is my independence. I want nothing more then to be my own person! I could not wait till the day I could move out on my own, and run my own
life without crazy curfews, chores, and annoying/bratty little brothers.
Independent life is everything I hoped for, besides worrying about money it ROCKS! I can do what I want, go where I want, and be who I want to be! No one to check into, no one to impress, just me and mine! So I guess I'm sort of veering from the original point a bit, but it is 1:10 AM...
Anyways...
I truly believe that we create our own destinies. The lesson we had on Sunday not only reiterated that point in my head, but also made me realize that the decisions I make now will not only affect me, but they will affect the children I will someday have and the husband I will some day be married to. It's so great to think that life isn't just a vein walk through/ corn maze type of deal. Things matter way more then you think they do, and to never give up!
It really irks me to the nth degree when people say I hate this or that! Hate is such a strong word! Like people who say I hate country music, or sports, or shopping, or organized religion, things of that sort, or even brands like Mac, or Nike. I just don't think that it is possible to truly hate something that is comprised of so many layers!
Let's take the classic "I HATE country!" Ok come on people, have you really listened to country music lately? I mean I used to be JUST like you! When I was about 12 or younger you could have asked me any day of the week and I would have said I HATE country music and I refused to listen to it. My famous reply would always be "come on, are you serious? You actually like that twangy, my dog just died, and my girl left me sort of thing?" That response got me through some good times of negativism towards country music.
Ironically enough I happened to have a best friend named Elyse. She was IN LOVE with country music at the time. I used to make fun of her so much and be like you are so weird, then one day suddenly, as if it had been growing on me for a while I just...liked it! As much as I hated to admit my mistake I was totally wrong! I loved country!!!! Not the twangy bluegrass crap mind you, the new funky, poppy, country!
County singers sing from the heart, not just to sell records and make catchy so
ngs. So many of us can relate the the words of the great country singers! That is what I love about the genre so much! The first time I ever cried to a song was to Rascal Flatt's "Sarabeth:. Oh snap! I cried! Then to "She Didn't Have Time" I STILL get chills every time I hear that song!!! The end is just so powerful!!! And come on Alison Kraus's "When You Say Nothing At All", what girl wouldn't want to be serenaded with that song!!! :)
Anyways back to the original point, it just really bugs me when people say they hate something when really, they only see one side of said thing. The same goes for people as well. I mean I don't know how many times I have not liked someone at first, then when I got to know them I really loved them! There was this new boy in my ward, and at first I wanted NOTHING to do with him, I thought he was creepy and weird, turns out I was wrong...he's weird yes, but not so creepy! He is super outgoing and fun!
**DISCLAIMER**Alright this blog is not for the faint at heart, and might make you uncomfortable! Feel free to stop reading at any time. So here it goes:
Don't you think the world would be a much more delightful place with out ever having to pee, poop, fart, burp, throw up, cry, you know any of those necessary bodily functions that seem to get in the way of life or take up much needed and precious time??? Well having peed about 6 times in the last 2 hours I would say that I hate having to pee!!!
I don't know what it is, but when I drink a lot of water it just goes right through me! I have to pee like 4 times in a row which is ridiculous! I mean I'll go pee then 10 minutes later my bladder feels like it's going to bust open! UGH! And holy cow if it's this bad now, I don't even want to know what it will be like when I'm pregnant! May as well just walk around with my toilet attached to my backside!
I mean how frustrating! I just LOVE water so much, and when I drink not even half of the daily requirements I have to pee all the live long day!!! It just sucks!!! How can you be good, and do good when all the odds and public restrooms are against you?!?! I mean just tonight the whole latter half of the movie I was thinking hurry! I have to pee! Just end!!! UGH! So frustrating!!! I hate that feeling that you are going to burst! But then again, I love the sweet relief that follows. :) I am sure I wouldn't miss it though...
Can you believe it another 10 days has just flown by! Once again I have a list of blogs to write! haha it's like i hold off so long that I just need a good blogging purge to set my mind at ease and make my life complete! Let me just tell you a bit about my day. It was quite remarkable, full, busy, exciting, adventurous, blessed, and fruitful!
So first let me start with the irony that comprised of yesterday's eve. SOOO first of all I am so excited because I extended my gym membership to every day instead of only 3 days a w
eek for only $9. And the guy is so full of crap! He was like well you need to do it today because the offer isn't good after 8pm or something. And he was like "and I'm not lying" and really I wasn't even thinking about it until he said it, then I was like YES YOU ARE! (in my head of course!) So he's like ok come back in like a half hour with your wallet. And I was thinking...well what would you do if I came back tomorrow, but I was like well why not, so I did. ANYWHO....
So after FHE which was fun! We played kickball! That is so 6th grade and I loved every minute of it! Then we played on the marry-go-round! That's right! And swings!!! Then sat a
t the top of this giant hill that over looked the city lights! It was a perfect night! After the perfection we decided to go to Spencer's to play Rock Band (I am getting a not so cute obsession for that stupid game!!!) But alas his brother was watching a movie, so we decided to go see Juno at the dollar, and I want to see it so bad so I was excited.
Well long story short Sarah's car pretty much gave up the ghost, so we missed that movie, but ended up seeing 27 Dresses, for the third time. Lol I really do love that movie though!!! So after the movie Spence and I got into a friendly little discussion sharing our opposing oppions about the movie. IE:
He said it's so not fair that the guys have to always lie to the girl in movies, that is not reality, and all of this other stuff that he was really passionate about...so passionate that I was so scared I stopped listening, and made faces with Sarah!
I said that I loved
how it was a real life situation! There is always someone prettier than you who steals your man! And sometimes they are even close to you...a sister, or like a sister! So real!
Ok you ready? Here comes the irony. So I get this text from Rob half way through the movie saying "Dude sorry I didn't text back I was in the theater. I just saw Juno! SOO GOOD!" Wow that is so funny because if things had gone according to plan I would have been in that very same theater! WEIRD!!!!
Another weird occurrence from yesterday...So earlier I totally spaced that I didn't have work, and then I remembered when I pulled into the parking lot and it was virtually empty. So I texted by boss (or so I thought) Tim Perkins and said "we don't have work right?" So latty dauh, went about my day, assumed we didn't since he never texted back and went on with my great day. Then at like 10 I get this text from Tim Pierson! Tim is on a mission....in Ghana!! I was so confused and it just said simply "right" I was SOOOO utterly confused!
Luckily I own a blackberry so I could see what I wrote and at that moment I realized that I accidentally sent the text that was supposed to go to my boss to the wrong Tim P! I mean just look at the names, simple mistake. But the weird thing wasn't that I made a mistake, the odd thing was that I got a text back!!! What the F-bomb!?!? So I inquired more of this mysterious texter, obviously it wasn't Tim, but who had his phone? And could it be possible that it was him? I know he has been sick and being threatened with being sent home....Ah! Mind boggling.
Anywho never really got any concrete answers on that one, but isn't that just so crazy!?!?! Now I want to know where exactly in the world is Tim Pierson! So sorry if you are getting bored, you may stop here if you want, but you might regret it when you realize that you missed out on hearing about my day today!! I talked to Rob in the car about it from the moment I got in to 5 minutes after we picked up Erika in Midvale...haha
So last night I actually went home at a decent time, and by decent it was like 12:30 AM. It was so hard, I wanted to stay and hang out, I had to peel myself away! :( But it was worth it when my alarm sounded at 7:15 feeling like a dream. So I got dressed, and headed out to face the world! I subbed for Jacklin Elementary's kindergarten. First of all when I was half way there I realized that I did not allow myself time enough to be there 15 minutes early...woops! Then it took for freaking ever to find because it was hidden in the middle of all of these dead end neighborhoods.
After about the 6th wrong street I finally happened upon the right one! Then I got there and turns out the kindergarten has it's own building! Weird! So I proceeded to trek onwards. Reaching my destination, I had t
o immediately let the kids in because I was a bit late, not giving myself any time to read the lesson plan for the day! While they entered I briefed myself on the first task. It was so crazy! I relied on those 6 year olds so much! "where is the CD player?" "what do I do when this happens?" ect. haha It was fun though, but annoying because I had about 4 kids who DID not get the worksheets! And all they had to do was count to 20!!! I wanted to be like ARE you kidding me...1-2-3!!! Come on the next number is 3!!!! But of course, that was not appropriate.
I guess it was just eye opening to me because I just assume everyone knows simple things like the alphabet, numbers and writing their names. Guess you gotta start somewhere, and kindergarten seems like it would be just the right place to do so. Moving along, there were 2 girls who did not speak english and wanted help. That was difficult! Good thing I knew my numbers in Spanish! Soon I just gave up trying English, and started being like uno, dos, ????Tres! si! haha Thank goodness for Spanish 2 in high school!!!!
So Jason and Sebastion were a hand full and a half! They were crazy!!!! But other then that the kids were pretty good. I had some very odd names, like Deshawn, Eglebuo, Nercey, Eber, and that's all I can think of at the mo
ment. Recess was interesting! First of all the play area is pebbles!!! How dangerous is that?!?! I had 2 injuries in the 10 minutes we were out there! What happened to good old fashioned sand or wood chips?! Pebbles! OUCH! I had to empty my shoes after recess because I had so many rocks in them!
So the first injury was the saddest and closest to my heart. Poor shy Kevin somehow fell head/chest first off of the high monkey bars, I didn't even see it but someone came and told me. The poor kid had the wind knocked out of him, but I'll give him major props, he was tough! He didn't cry, he just looked really pitiful, hurt and sad. I was like oh my heck! He had rock dust all over his face, his hand was bleeding, and he was in a lot of pain!
I didn't know exactly what to do at that moment because I was the only teacher on recess duty so I couldn't just leave the 40 kids to wreak havoc while mending Kevin, so I just had him come sit with me the rest of recess. He was so quiet! Then when we went inside I cleaned and bandaged up the wound. It's funny because with most kids you just give them a hug and a band aid and they are good to go in like 10 minutes, but poor Kevin...all day he just sat with his head on his desk, in pain. :( It was so sad!
The second injury was this girl from the other class comes over hysterically crying and bleeding!!! Some other kid had to tell me what happened because she was so hysterical she could not speak! I still don't really know what happened, but I just sent her to her teacher's classroom, to let her deal with it. So yeah, very interesting day to say the least. There were some strange kids at that school.
Right after that I had to immediately rush to the LH. I told Patti that I could be there at 12 and the lunch was being served at 12, so it was really pointless and I had to leave at 2, but she really needed me, so I did it. It was a sweet lunch. So I got there, helped clear salads, and did dinners, then went on break! The coolest part of the lunch was that 
I got to server Elder Bednar!!! It was simply amazing. The way he looks and sounds on TV for conference is exactly who he is! It was so cool!!!
After 2:00 rolled around, I rushed over to the big JE...Jackson Elementary to head up my after school program. OH my heck, the kids were wild and crazy today! I mad
e the HUGE mistake of bringing play dough! BAD idea! Within 15 minutes the floor was covered in pink, green, and purple specks, and the kids were using balls of dough as projectiles to inflict pain upon each other. Edwardo had about 10 time outs!!! He was horrible today!!!
So after yelling and screaming at them to not play, but clean up, someone informs me that Roberto is crying. (that kid gets hurt more than anyone I know!!!! He is tough though! He cries for like 5 minutes, then gets back out there and plays again) Apparently Vincent decided it would be a brilliant idea to shove dried play dough in Roberto's eye! Yeah...he was wrong! It caused this HUGE purple bruise on Roberto's eye lid. Then Vincent had the audacity to call Roberto a baby for crying! I just lost it! I was like Vincent come here right now! Look at Roberto's eye! It's purple because of what you did! He is not a baby! You hurt him!!! And then Vincent realized what he did, and apologized, but oh my heck! KIDS!!!
Then the nice day went to pot and it started snowing and made me sad inside!! BUT then after Kelijean and I jammed to my current fav. song (check blog title ;)on the way home from work, I ate great left overs from Typhoon, and then went to see 21 with Rob and Erika. It was so intense and good! SEE IT! WELL! That is all of the excitement that has happened to me in the past 2 days! I am sorry it was sooo long!!! :)
I love blogging! I love having an outlet for all of my bottled up emotions. Usually I am really good about telling people how I feel, and what's bothering me, but sometimes when people get tired of hearing my stories over and over then I can still blog about it! Then I can always go back and read it and re-read it. It is so great!!!
For me the greatest part of writing a blog is to come up with a title! :) I love thinking of titles, I swear I will be driving down the freeway and something will just hit me! At the next light I quickly record it in my phone under a nifty little category I like to call blogs. :) So great! I LOVE blogs! I love reading blogs, writing blogs, and thinking of blogs!
Have you ever drifted apart from a friend? It sucks, but usually you don't realize it happening because you both get too busy or change and don't want to hang around each other anymore. Well that's not what this blog is about. This blog is about loosing someone near and dear to you because they get a significant other. As many of you may know Rob is one of my best friends! I love the kid to death. We talk about EVERYTHING! I have told him things no one else knows about me, and he has shared things with me that no one else on earth knows. We used to hang out all the time, and talk every day. Ever since he started dating Erika we haven't hung out alone or done anything fun. 
I mean yes we've hung out just the two of us, but it seems that whenever we hang out it's A. because Erika is working and B. because he doesn't want to do something by himself so he calls me. It really feels like I am just his back up. It sounds bad, and he knows it, but I really am. He'll call me if he needs something, or if Erika's working, and of course he truly cares about me and I know he loves me, but he loves me second to Erika. Which is also fine, I mean she's his girl friend, but it just sucks to see a valued friendship slipping away and there is nothing you can do to fix it.
Rob is probably the most interesting person I've met in SLC. He has been there for me through all of my hard times. He is like the older brother I've never had. I love the adventure that he exuberates. We've gone on some amazing trips, seen some amazing things, done some amazing things, been there and back. It's sad that it seems it is all ending. I really don't get how people can't multi task friends! UGH!
I have always had a best friend. My whole life, but because I've had a best friend I don't do EVERYTHING with that one person. I've also always had a lot of friends. I don't like to spend all of my time with one person. Maybe it's just me, but I get sick of people quickly. I like to spread my time amongst my friends. They are all great and I love them. It just makes me sad that other people can't spread their time out like that. It really just annoys me!!! I love Rob, and I love Erika, I love that they are a couple, but I don't understand, or like that they don't have time for me anymore. I mean I would even take hanging out with both of them together! But I don't even get that! :( I miss my best friend. :(:(:(:(:( 
While watching 27 Dresses for the second time, something depressing fluttered into my mind. Am I doomed to be one of those girls who is always a bride's maid, but never a bride? It seems that is how things are going at the moment. I am great friends with so many people, and they all love and adore me (or want to be me when they grow up. :) THANKS guys!). So many of my good friends are getting married. I am not saying that is what I want right now, but I just want to know that potentially in about 2 1/2 ish years I can have that too!
That is all...just thought I'd share a few thoughts about that.
Why is it that someone can be a complete jerk, totally un-dateable then they strut up to the piano, play a glorious rendition of a favorite song, and suddenly, but just for the three minutes they are up there playing, they become...somewhat desirable!?! I don't understand! For some reason when I witness something amazing, and amazing talent I get a twinkle in my eye, and a gleam in my heart! He's so...not what I want, and not what I am looking for, and he's leaving in a week! GRR! Oh well since I was never into it I'm suddenly over it!
Also just as a PS I love it when people share their talents with me! Saturday at Jake's when he, Steve and Brandon started playing guitar and singing it totally made my day! Then there's Robby, making it look like he's playing, but he totally didn't!!!! Anyways it was great! Thanks guys!
First of all it pains my soul that I have not written in so long! Every day I think I should blog today! But it becomes such a hassle with my POC (piece of crap) computer! I don't want to get interrupted in a great blogging therapy session with a frozen computer! I have been stressed beyond all belief because the semester is coming to a close and I have become a master procrastinator. Luckily all of my presentations which I BS'ed last minute went flawlessly! If only my grade was based solely on that! But no then there are the inevitable tests! Hard to BS your way through that. Either you know the information or you don't. In this situation unfortunately I don't really know a whole lot.
My education at the BC has been good for one thing. A nice shiny paper with my name on it that I will hopefully get in a week! I started out wanting to learn and do good, but as the days, weeks, months, and years progressed I just wanted to get the heck out of school! I suppose you can say that is why I started procrastinating so much, and really hating school.
I've never been one who loved going to school, being at school, or even learning new things, but I always did it to help me get to college. Well now I'm here and I'm seeing what a big fat waste of time it has been. I want to work at a salon. I really don't need a degree behind me. The fact that I will have one amazes me and I am so happy that I accomplished my goal.
My mom never graduated college and my dad never even went, so I guess I always had to feel like I had to prove myself and show that I am better than my parents were. With my associates in business I will also receive a sales and accounting certificate. That's pretty darn sweet if you ask me! All in all I'm glad I did endure these two years of the Business College, I can say I came, I saw, I conquered, and even got the tee-shirt to prove it. (Literally! hehe)
I just took my first of 5 tests....hope I did ok! It was super hard! For only 24 freaking questions you think it would have been easier! Tomorrow is another day filled with working two jobs, then two tests. I really need to study, but honestly I just want to sleep! I am so freaking physically exhausted. I should not have taken that substituting job at 7 AM! It has ruined my whole week. I have been exhausted since I got up that morning at 6!
Gosh darn money! Gosh darn work! Gosh darn school! Sometimes I just hate life! I mean it's always one thing after another! I hadn't spent money on myself since before Christmas break, so when I got my tax return and got paid all in the same weekend I felt pretty rich! So what did I do? Go on a major shopping spree of course! And then what happened? My car decided to start smoking.
So I had to pay $150 (luckily thanks to Rob's Mexican hook ups it was only that much!) to fix it, then no sooner then that was fixed the teeny, tiny, microscopic, pebble-size chip in my windshield from over a year ago decided to turn into a full blown crack across the driver's side of my windshield! Thomas keeps bugging me to just buy a new car, and I am getting more and more tempted! I mean I LOVE my car! I love how small it is, I love the sunroof, I love the CD player, I bought it with my own money, it totally has OR pride. I just don't want to move on I guess. The sad thing is that there is a huge rust spot on the hood and now crack in the windshield telling me to just let go and move on to bigger and better things!!!!
And the whole car repair situation sucked! I majorly went into depression for almost 2 days while I didn't have a car. You really don't realize your limits until you are bound. I mean choosing not to drive is one thing, but not being able to drive when you want to is another thing completely! It was sooo freaking frustrating! I had so much I wanted to do! Go to they gym, buy school supplies, visit people, but without a car I could not do any of it! UGH UGH UGH is all I felt!
To top off my limits being tested in every direction, the kids at the elementary are little monsters! Seriously! They are out of control, and constantly slap, cuss, threaten, intimidate, and wreak havoc on each other! It disgusts me! And I don't know what to do anymore! I just want to throw the towel in and quit, but that is not what these kids need. They need a fighter, someone that no many times they hear the spiteful words "I hate you!" will keep coming back every day stronger, and ready to keep on truckin'. As much as I hate to be that person I feel that I have to be.
To sum up this little venting/pitty party blog I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. I know that all the trials I go through are going to end up teaching me something I could not have learned any other way. (I just wish it wasn't so hard sometimes!) If you think about it happiness is all about expectations. When we don't get what we want we are unhappy! Well I think that is completely ridiculous! What are we spoiled 6 year olds?
When things don't work out the way we expect we have two choices, roll with the punches, or create a different solution to solve the problem and try again. I intend to make things happen in my life. I will graduate, then fulfill my dreams of cosmetology! I need to stop procrastinating and get my life in order
