You don't have to promise me the moon or the stars, just promise me you will stand under them with me

The old adage fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me resounds in my ears. Especially lately. I honestly give people way too many chances. After about the 3rd chance you can usually tell that a person is just going to disappoint you. For some reason I can't help but think they will change, or that maybe this time it will be different. I buy all of the stupid excuses, and get over it just to be hurt and disappointed again. WHY?!?!

I am the kind of person who when someone makes plans with me, I actually PLAN on it. Crazy I know! Who does that right? *SARCASM!!!** It really irritates me when people A. flake out on said plans, or B. don't even call to say they flaked out!

So kind of off topic, but not at the same time my friend just texted me and said "I hate boys" and I said me too, but why? and she said "Cause they play games and they leave you and they're mean and they break down your self esteem. They don't call when they say they will, I'm glad I have a dog, who needs a boy."

Honestly! I HATE HATE HATE the game! I don't think that love should be a game you play like monopoly or clue! It should be as simple as I like you, you like me, let's like each other! Somehow it gets complicated along the way. I am the kind of person who wears my heart on my sleeve. I try so hard not to go all in, but at the same time I can't help it. I get attached really easily, so it's really hard for me to get over things.

How frustrating! I just want to be able to be like a boy, and be like oh, I'll just make out with her, then not call her for a week. Then make plans with her, and make her think I like her, then never talk to her again. THEN have a DTR and say I'm confused, and that I don't want a relationship right now THEN have a girlfriend 3 days later!

I am loving that Beyonce song Like a Boy. It is so true!!! They have nothing to worry about, somehow along with missing the brain gene, they also are missing the emotion gene. When things like this happen to them they don't care, and they get over it, while us girls are stuck mulling over every little detail of what went wrong trying to figure out what WE did to make THEM change, and why when things were so good one day, did they suddenly take a turn for the worst and dive bomb?

I really don't even know what I want right now. Basically I just want to date I think. At the same time I also really want the companionship that comes with having a boyfriend. I really love to cuddle, and hug, and kiss, and I want someone to share that with. I am sick of always getting stuck in the friend zone.

And honestly how in the world can you think it's ok to go around making plans then not only not following through, but not even calling to say you won't be there! How can you NEVER call a girl, and just text her. I mean I like texting just as much as the next girl, but enough is enough! You DO NOT text me and ask me on a date, you DO NOT only communicate through text with me! Pick up the phone and call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UGH! Why are boys so utterly confusing? Why are they so incredibly STUPID?!