Last night I had a pleasant nightmare!

Generally boys of my generation think that if they do something chivalrous for a woman, said woman will think they like them. Not so boys! Not so! Sure if I like a guy, and he holds my door open it will make me like him even more, but the beauty of chivalry is that it is nonsexual! Chivalry is defined as "ideal qualifications for a knight including courtesy, generosity, and valor." (Okay, and I didn't know what valor meant, so that is: boldness or determination facing danger") Who doesn't want a man with all of those qualities! Where do I sign up?!

At the gym the other day I was about to have one of those awkward scenes at a glass door where you are going and someone else is coming, and you can see each other, and you have to decide who goes first and who opens the door. A mist this internal conflict a chivalrous older gentleman saw saw what was about to happen, and ran to open the door for me. It totally made my day!

I have come to the conclusion that chivalry is not dead! At least in men over 50! haha! Hey a girl's gotta take what she can get right? ;)

So random, but I also want a guy who I can call my beloved! Doesn't that sound so lovely and endearing?

Bad news never has good timing

I have been thinking a lot lately about commitment, and young love. Basically my conclusion is that young love will never work without commitment! Honestly no love will ever work without commitment. I was reading Nicholas Sparks autobiography, and he talks about how if two people aren't committed to each other, and to bettering the relationship it's basically a waste of time and neither partner will ever feel secure in the relationship. I mean how could one feel secure if he or she thought that they could just get dropped like it's hot if they got into an argument, and if things "just weren't working" Things aren't going to be all rainbows and roses, but I want to feel secure enough in a relationship that if we have an argument I know that my partner will want to work through whatever the issue may be, and not try to run away, or find a way out of the awkward situation.

A relationship as my friend Minda puts it is not 50/50 it's 100% and 100%. If you are only putting 50% in the relationship it will never work. You need to be giving it your all. If you are not, I don't want you because I will definitely be putting in 100%! Now comes the tricky part...how do you find a guy that will put in 100%. Even if you do find said guy, how do you know when the going gets tough he won't just throw in the towel, and go for a younger skinnier, less emotional little tramp?

Oh gosh! Life is an endless string of what-if's. I guess that's where faith comes in. Just let whatever is meant to happen happen...I just wish I could be more patient while whatever is supposed to happen will just happen already!

So the young love part of my thoughts...well I was thinking that the younger you get married the more you still have to grow up, and change. That would be scary to wake up and realize that you married someone, and now that they have grown up, and decided who they want to be they are completely different! SCARY! I know just in friendships people that I was friends with in high school have done 180's! Even people I met in college are still changing and trying to find out who they are.

I guess to wrap all of these random thoughts up faith is what I need. Faith and hope that God knows what's best for me, and he really does have a plan for my life, and I won't be alone forever, and I will find someone willing to give me the 100% I will give them. :) It won't be perfect, but it will be perfect for me!

The Lady is not only beautiful but fierce and is a terrible force to be rekonded

Well time to catch up on my blog I suppose! What is a day off, and procrastinating going to the gym for eh? Uh oh! I definitely should have gotten ready for the gym before I opened the curtains! It is SNOWING! Shoot! now I really don't want to go to the gym! :(

Anyway I have been meaning to write about my Valentine's Day this year! I love this holiday! Most single girls feel the holiday is overly commercialized (which it is...granted.), but I LOVE IT! What is not to love about a holiday that focuses on romance, roses, red, pink, and most importantly...CHOCOLATE! Being single on Valentine's day can go one of two ways, wallow in self pity, and cry yourself to sleep because you didn't get any chocolate or flowers, OR buy yourself some chocolate, roses, and treat yourself to a chick flick with the girls!

I honestly want to be in love so badly! I want to know what it's like to have one person love you so deeply that nothing else matters. I don't foresee that happening anytime soon though because of recent conversations I've had with the boys I associate with. Most of the conversations go like this:

"What do you look for in a girl?"-Me

"Smokin' hot!"-Boy

"Well yeah, don't we all, but what else?"-Me

"Well if she's smokin' hot what else matters?"-Boy

Hum...well there you have it. An intelligent answer by an intelligent gender I suppose. So I guess in order to meet the man of my dreams I should stop working on my intellect, and personality, and start focusing on my hot bod! Hit the gym 7 hours a day, get some fake eyelashes, blonde extensions (because let's face it which boy can't resist a blonde?), and perhaps a little plastic surgery? Well it all makes sense! That's why me, and all my amazing girl friends are still single! Well now that we have this key to catching a man I'm sure by next Valentine's Day the story will be different! YES!

NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay seriously if that is all a guy is looking for then I don't want him. I know that the perfect guy for me exists, and if he just likes me for my looks then he is definitely out! I totally understand that you have to be attracted to a significant other. I can't tell you how many guys who frankly I am not attracted to seem to gravitate towards me, but I just can't do it. I don't blame a man who isn't attracted to me, but my question is where do I find the man that is attracted to me, AND likes me for more then my looks? Anyone know?

I am just so sick of hearing that all men care about is a hot bod! No wonder our generation has more single and divorced people than any other! We are SO picky! We seek perfection, but don't embody perfection! How hypocritical! Anyway, it will happen for me when it will happen, but I am not lowering my standards to get a man! That being said I am now going to step off of my soapbox, and tell about my fantastic Valentine's Day!

I had the best day ever because I decided to focus on other people who might feel overlooked on this lovey holiday! I made little Valentine's day packets for my roomies, visiting teachees, and neighbors. I hope it made them each feel as special as they are! I love them all! :) One of the funnest things was I closed by myself at work the night before Valentine's Day, and had Valentine's off, so I decided to heart attack the back room at work so when my co-workers came to work they would be thrilled! I cut out little hearts, and wrote cute sayings the whole evening, and it worked! I love making people feel special! My manager who I thought would think the whole thing is ridiculous loved it! I could tell that it made them all feel so special! As a thank you my co-worker bough me chocolate covered strawberries! YAY!

After making sure everyone else felt special on this lovely holiday I also did some things for myself! I went to the gym, where I was delighted with the presence of a very good looking man to look at during my work out, then I went to the Blue Lemon (the best ever!), got lunch and came home and watched The Bachelor while eating reeses eggs and chocolate covered cinnamon bears (a dynamite combo!) Then later I went to see The Vow with the girls! It was a fabulous day!

The person who talks most has the most to loose

I am now a rules girl! Well hopefully!!! Let me recap The Rules for you!

Rule #1 Be a creature unlike any other

Rule #2 Don't talk to a man first

Rule #3 Don't stare at men or talk too much

Rule #4 Don't meet him halfway or go dutch on a date

Rule #5 Don't call him and rarely return his calls

Rule #6 Always end phone calls first

Rule #7 Don't accept a Saturday night date after Wednesday

Rule #8 Fill up your time before the date

Rule #9 Don't tell too much, and be mysterious on dates 1-3

Rule #10 After the first 3 dates still don't hang it all out on the line

Rule #11 Always end the date first

Rule #12 Stop dating him if he doesn't buy you romantic gifts for special occasions

Rule #13 Don't see him more then once or twice a week

Rule #14 No more than casual kissing on the first date

Rule #15 I am skipping rule 15 because it doesn't apply! haha

Rule #16 Don't tell him what to do

Rule #17 Let him take the lead

Rule #18 Don't expect a man to change or try to change him

Rule #19 Don't open up too fast

Rule #20 Be honest but mysterious

Rule #21 Accentuate the positive

Rule #22 Don't leave your things at his apartment

Rule #23 Don't date a married man

Rule #24 Slowly involve him in your family

Rule #25 Practice, practice, practice!

Rule #26 Even if you are engaged you still need rules

Rule #27 Do the rules even when others think you are nuts

Rule #28 Be smart

Rule #29 Take care of yourself

Rule #30 Deal well with rejection

Rule #31 Don't break the rules!

Rule #32 Love only those who love you

Rule #33 Be easy to live with

Oh man, these rules may seem hard, and weird, but seriously READ THE BOOK! If you have the opportunity follow the rules! :) LOVE THEM!

When I said go I never meant away

I have always been secretly interested in astrology, numerology ect. I do not live my life by the results, but I have definitely found some truths in all of them! It is so interesting! My personality is very divided, and I am a Gemini, which totally explains it! I also am two completely opposite colors according to The Color Code, which comes back to being a divided personality, and a Gemini.

I am reading about Gemini traits, so I will share! Gemini's are know for intelligence, awakening, cleverness, and education. Many Gemini's show extrovert tendencies, and are highly adaptable, versatile, has great communication skills, intellectual, and youthful in appearance. They are highly sociable, and posses a certain quality that allows them to communicate verbally as if it were effortless. Gemini's are also eloquent conversationalists which seem to draw others to them. Gemini's are very responsive to change, and constantly seek new opportunities to take on new adventures. Gemini's are able to harness their love for change and become excellent multitasking juggling several projects at once.

High intelligence is another positive trait of a Gemini, their minds tend to work in a very logical, and rational manner allowing them to gain knowledge very rapidly. Gemini's typically learn as much as they can in as short of amount of time as possible. Gemini's are positive, and outgoing. A Gemini is the kind of person that likes to see and learn about everything the world has to offer!

Anyway very interesting, and very true! There were other traits that weren't so accurate, so I didn't bother with them! haha!

The people were buzzing like a bug on a light!

Little random tid-bit about me. I am not very thorough, but I am definitely efficient! For example I recently had a crash course on learning to crochet, but after mastering the technique I basically just wanted to finish, and it ended up getting smaller and smaller instead of staying the same size! Woops! This is exactly why I could never have a talent that didn't finish within a few hours such as crocheting, knitting, painting, drawing, ect. I just want to get in there and get it done, and it would honestly keep me awake all night because I would not go to bed till I finished!

Don't push your luck, don't get more then your hopes up

So random thoughts I feel like when I was younger I didn't realize that people were very different, and have different personality traits. I just thought all people working behind counters at stores were professional, and all customers were just normal professional adults. I have sadly learned throughout my almost 24 years of life that people are all very different. I know we have been taught since first grade that people are different, but I am not talking differences like I have green eyes, and brown hair while you have blue eyes and black hair, I am talking personality differences.

Annoying life altering differences! People are lazy, unobservant, rude, inconsiderate, ditsy, slow ect. Some people just don't think things through, and are total morons! They don't warn you about these frustrating people in first grade!

After reading books like the Five Love Languages, and The Color Code where personality types, and needs of people are discussed I feel like I have become even more aware of the wide differences in personalities. I can totally peg someone's personality pretty well just by talking to them once. People are just really frustrating sometimes.

I feel like I am pretty level headed, conciseness, and observant, thus when people are not any of those things it really irks me! I was venting to a friend about how I always have my Cosmoprof or Costco card ready before I even go into the store where I need it. Sure everyone misplaces things sometimes, but some people I deal with NEVER have ANYTHING! Even worse then taking 20 minutes rifling through your purse to find it is not even having it at all, then acting like a mega B and so inconvenienced that now I have to look up your information. BE PREPARED PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!

My history teacher always said "Failure to plan on your part does not constitute and emergency on mine." When he would say that I would just think to myself, yeah yeah, whatever, but now that I am in the real world and dealing with totally irresponsible people I totally know what he meant, and why he ingrained that into our little high school brains! it is a very vital key to being a responsible contributing member of society!

My biggest petpeeve is irresponsible people! I have no idea why I am so conscientious, or how I even came to be like this, but I feel like I am alone in my plight! I feel like the standards I set for myself and society's standards are very different! It is super frustrating! Is it my age group? Will things get better with age? What do I have to look forward to? Older morons, or people who go throughout life with actual brains and respect in their heads?

Dead Flowers

Okay, so I came to a few realizations about being a missionary and sharing the gospel with those we love. First of all make sure those around you know your beliefs, second DO NOT PUSH your beliefs on others! Let me discuss each point!

My parents are wonderful examples of making sure all of their friends and family know our beliefs. They share the gospel with them whenever they can. My non-member family members definitely look to my parents as the spiritual leaders, and I have never really noticed or appreciated it before, but when I was back home we had a funeral for my uncle and I was so pleased to see my Aunt turn to my Dad and ask him to lead the group in a prayer. I am so glad that he was able and willing to do just that. It brought a reverence and peace to the occasion! It was so great to know that out of all of the family members in attendance my Dad was the one they looked to to lead a prayer to our Father in Heaven. :)

On the flip side my parents are pushers of the gospel. It's not entirely a bad thing, but over and over again I heard non-member family members and friends saying that they were getting out of there before they were bombarded with the "come back's" that would surely come. I truly wish everyone on this earth knew the truth that I know, and I long to share that with everyone I come in contact with, however you cannot force people to do anything. All you can do is plant a seed, and make sure they know you are there if ever they are ready to make the steps towards attending church. People don't like to be constantly preached to. They want to know you care for them regardless of their religious views, and that you won't always steer the conversation towards points of doctrine that may make them uncomfortable. You've got to be able to gauge a person, and make sure they enjoy the conversation!

Another thing I observed/learned is that we simply need to be there for those we love regardless of if we think it could be done our way. Here is what I mean by that. My Aunt wanted us to come over to her house and watch a movie. My Dad wanted her to come to our house, since we live very close(....half a block away) either way was a good choice, but my Aunt simply wanted to be at her own house and relax, and have some company, she didn't want to go out anywhere. We ended up having a great time, watched a movie and played games. My Aunt didn't play games with us, instead she watched another movie by herself, and at first we were all like well we should have just gone to our house, but later I realized that the point wasn't whose house we were at it was that we were all together. My Aunt didn't want to be alone that night, and just the fact that we were there was exactly what she wanted. :)

Small town woes

So I got to travel to good ole Klamath Falls, Oregon for my brother's homecoming this last week and I realized why I don't go back very often...it's not that exciting! The trip was really fun though, I got to see tons of friends and family, so that was good, but my cousins and I had discussions about how much more fun life is when you get out of Klamath! I am so glad I got out when I did! No offense to those who are still there, and who are happy there, my parents being two of those. I just feel like it isn't for me! It is a wonderful place to be from, and I enjoyed growing up there, however there is so much that the world has to offer outside of Klamath County!

Cry me a river that leads to your ocean

Oh Kelly Clarkson, you always get it right. She wrote this song called You Can't Win, and it is about tons of stereotypes, I just love it, I think it speaks to everyone!

If you go, they’ll say you’re following
If you don’t, then you’re too good for them
If you smile, you must be ignorant
If you don’t, what’s your problem?

If you’re down, so ungrateful
And if you’re happy, why so selfish?
And, you can’t win
No, you can’t win, no

The one who doesn’t quite fit in
Underdressed under your skin
Oh, a walking disaster
Every time you try to fly
You end up falling out of line, oh
You can’t can’t win, no

If you’re thin, poor little walking disease
If you’re not, they’re all screaming obese
If you’re straight, why aren’t you married yet?
If you’re gay, why aren’t you waving a flag?
If it’s wrong, you’re knowing it
If it’s right, you’ll always miss
You can’t win, no
You can’t win, no

The one who doesn’t quite fit in
Underdressed under your skin
Oh, a walking disaster
Every time you try to fly
You end up falling out of line, oh
You can’t can’t win, no

And you try, you try so hard
But it’s wearing on your heart
And you play, you play the game
But you pay, you pay for it
You can’t win, no
You can’t win no

If you speak, you’ll only piss ‘em off
If you don’t, you’re another robot
If you stop, they’ll just say you quit
If you don’t, you might lose your shit
You can’t win, no
You can’t win, no
You can’t win, nooo

The one who doesn’t quite fit in
Underdressed under your skin
Oh, a walking disaster
Every time you try to fly
You end up falling out of line, oh
You can’t can’t win, no

I can’t win...

The one who doesn’t quite fit in
Underdressed under your skin
Oh, a walking disaster
Every time you try to fly
You end up falling out of line, oh
You can’t can’t win, no

It's all Greek to me!

Nothing makes me feel more like a girl then painting my nails hot pink! LOVE IT!!! :)

Downfall of the once common gentleman

I have been thinking a lot about how to catch a boy's attention. I am super bad at playing "the game." Usually I want what I want, and I go for it. When it doesn't work out I just move on, but I am sick of it. So after talking to Cynthia who is a firm believer in "the rules" I decided I need to implement something like that into my lure of the opposite sex. I have to make myself less available because if I don't more likely then not I end up the friend zone.

I am the kind of person that needs constant companionship...and I mean constant! When I get home from work the first thing I do is look for someone to talk to! If no one is home I start calling or texting my roommates wondering where they are. If I don't see friends frequently (which frequently to me is at the very least once a week) I literally miss them. I don't know why, that's just how I am, therefore it is SUPER hard for me to play hard to get, and distance myself from a boy I like. Inside all I want to do is talk to them constantly, and stay connected, but absence makes the heart grow fonder, so I will work on that.

Why don't men ask women out anymore? This is the real point of this blog. So often I have pondered this question whether alone, or with other eligible female friends, I have come to a conclusion! Ready? Here is my theory:

In the old days women were very dependent on men. Men held open doors, drove cars, worked to provide an income for the family, went to school to get an education, asked women on dates, proposed marriage, ect. Now a days, women are super independent (almost to a fault, myself definitely included) We do all of the things for ourselves that men took pride in doing for us, and when a decent man tries to step in an be what was once a common gentleman he is mocked, and ridiculed, sadly not only by his peers, but by the women he tries so hard to impress. As a result he stops trying, and lets the woman be independent, ask him on dates, and in some cases even propose marriage!

Obviously this is a generalization, but all of the equal rights demanded by our female friends immaculateness the males in our lives, to the point where it seems absurd to even try. Today frequently when a boy does something nice for a girl such as hold open a door the girl automatically thinks he is too overbearing and trying too hard. SAD! So sad! I will be the first to say that old time charm is a definite plus, however I feel like women need to learn to accept it.

When I was going to the business college my friend Rob and I hung out all of the time, and since we lived down town we walked pretty much everywhere we went, and when we would walk he would always move me to the inside of the sidewalk, so he was on the outside. This was so annoying to me! One day I was like why do you always push me over?! And he explained that he was brought up to do that as the gentlemanly thing to do. Whenever with his Mom, sister, or any female he always walks on the side of the sidewalk closest to the street because if a car drove by and splashed them it is better for the man to get wet.

I literally had to learn to let him do nice things for me. Sadly this is what our society has become, but I definitley believe it is worth it for boys to try, and for boys to encourage girls to let them do the gentlemanly thing. :) Morale of the story in the olden days boys asked girls out, and now a day they do not because girls scare them! haha! I just wish boys would try harder! haha!

Snow snow go away!

Things I hate:

When your hair gets caught in your necklace!

When you straighten your hair then it snows!

You're taking me apart like bad glue on a get well card

So! Here's the thing! If I am cleaning then I AM CLEANING. If you feel bad that I am doing it (probably because it's your mess), then you should have already done it.

I don't necessarily enjoy washing dishes, however I do enjoy a clean home, and clean sink!

One thing I will never get is people who can be at home for days, and never once unload the dish washer, and make more dirty dishes...if you have time to make dinner, and make a mess, then you can find time to clean up your mess!

October is amazing!!!

Do you know what I love about fall??? EVERYTHING! I have come to the realization this fall that LOVE fall! I love the turning of the leaves, the ability to wear scarfs and boots, the crisp smell of the fresh fall air, the colors of everything. I LOVE IT! And most of all I love pumpkin! Pumpkin shakes, pumpkin chocolate chip cookies, and I tried pumpkin hot cocoa, and pumpkin rice crispies this fall! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! I love it!! I love fall, and love it! :) I also love Halloween, corn mazes, haunted houses, dressing up! EVERYTHING! I love October! :)