Why is all of the chit chat surrounding me about getting married lately? We just had stake conference and they were like get married! Well duh! We all want to get married, but it is not like it's an easy decision to make!!! Good things take time! I am not going to just rush into a HUGE thing like my eternal salvation with my eyes closed! I am not going to get married just because it is the thing to do at the time! That is ridiculous! I want to go on dates, I want to serve a mission, I have things to do in my life and at this point getting married is just not what's in store for me. Of course in a few years I expect this to change, but seriously, stop pushing me!!! Th
is Utah environment is what does it! In a singles ward in Oregon it would not be like this. UGH! I just want to get up there and be like look president! We're trying! That is why we are in a singles ward! If you really want to make a change get those stupid boys to ask us out! That is really the problem! Boys just don't have guts to ask the girls they like out! WHY? I don't understand! On that note, what makes some girls more date able then others. Some people go on dates every week, some once a month, and some not at all. Why is it so variable? Complicated, and awkward! I mean if a guy is willing to pull out your chair, hold open your door, and let you go first, why can he not ask you out?
Alright so the key to sneaking stuff that isn't yours is to be discrete right? Never open the package, never take the last one, don't take so much that it's obvious, if you borrow it, but it back when you're done. That is just common sense right?!?! Wrong apparently to my roommate! The most annoying thing in the world to me is when someone borrows my things without asking, and either loose them, or just plain don't return them! :(
That has been happening quite frequently lately in my apartment. I really don't mind lending my stuff to people, but if you are going to borrow it, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE put it back right where you took it from! Especially if you take it without asking!!! Anyone who has seen my room or knows me knows that yes I do have a lot of stuff. I have a lot of clothes, a lot of shoes, a lot of jewelry, a lot of purses, a lot of hair stuff ect, but I have worked really hard to get the things that I have! It has taken me almost 20 years to collect some of the things I now have.
I keep things I have nice and organized; everything in it's place. Do you know why I leave everything in it's place? So that I can find it when I need it! If it isn't there how the heck am I supposed to use it when I want to? It's my stuff, so why should I have to go looking around the house for it when I want to wear those particular earrings with that outfit, or when I want to wear a certain headband with those shoes. It just drives me crazy to not only not have my things, but when I find them in someone else's room, or lying carelessly around the house! If I borrow things you can bet that I give it back promptly, and with great care, I expect the same in return. 
What is it about the buzzing of the dryer to tell you that the laundry is clean? I LOVE the relief of laundry day!!! The week or two week's worth of clothes that has littered your bedroom floor is finally pressed, soon to be folded and put away in it's rightful place! There is something so solemn about returning things to their place. The floor is clean, bed is made, and everything is in order! I just love it!
I'm a bit of a dork that way! I've always loved organizing, and cleaning, it just makes me happy. Ever since I was a little girl I would just randomly decide to rearrange my room, or organize the games in my closet. I really believe that when things are neat and tidy it gives you assurance that you need to relax and think about the things that are more important, and that are really weighing on your mind.
I just can't stand a mess, and when I see one I have to take control of the situation, and clean and organize it. I bet my roommates get a little irritated when I go through one of my organizing fits. I organize the cupboards and then they can't find anything haha. But I know right where everything is. :)
I love being treated like, well a girl. I love it when boys do things like pull out chairs, open doors, let me go first, ect. It literally makes me go weak at the knees, but it hardly ever happens anymore so much that when it does happen I don't know exactly how to act or what to do! It's so sad that our society is diminishing so much that a chivalrous act almost always goes unnoticed, is demeaned, or not praised. It makes me feel so special when gentlemen do things like that for me. I mean what girl doesn't want to be treated with that kind of respect!? Even if it's just me and a friend taking a walk, and he moves to the side of the side walk where the cars are, it just makes me smile. :) I want to instill in my children the drive to treat women with respect. For all of you boys who already treat women like this hats off to you! For the rest of you, take notes! Girls love this stuff!!
I do not understand those women who discourage men from doing acts of chivalry. When a woman says, I can open my own door, or pay myself, or drive everywhere, it is like a total rejection! It makes me so sick! Why would you ever want to be so selfish to deny someone the privilege of showing you how much you are loved?
I want to feel like a princess who needs saving, and looking after. I am a very independent person, but at the same time I want to be dependent on someone! Sometimes it's so frustrating because when we are sitting so close, I just want to hold his hand, or cuddle, or lay my head on his shoulder, or just scratch his back or play with his hair, but that would be so out of character, I have to just hold back, and let the moment pass. In that sense I really need a knight in shining armor to come save me. I believe that it is the duty of the boy to make moves, and ask girls out. So many boys are shirking in this duty!
It makes me so sad! I just want to be like here I am date me!!! My pleas seem to go unnoticed. Someone please find me a romeo, find me a knight in shining armor to shimmy up my long golden locks of hair and rescue me from the tall dark tower. Man I am a sucker for a good fairy tale!!! Too bad fairy tales aren't my reality! I think I should have been a medieval princess so that people could fawn over me, treat me chivalrously, and well like a princess.
Have you ever noticed that motorcyclists think they are the shiz?!?!? It is so annoying! Today I was driving home from work and the light turned red. There was me, a motorcycle in front of me and a car in front of the motorcycle, then suddenly the motorcycle speeds up and goes IN FRONT of the car (mind you the car was already on the line waiting for the green light!) I was like are you serious?! Can you not wait 2 seconds for the light to turn! And what gives you the right to go around cars when the light is red?!!?!
What is the appeal about motorcycles anyways? I just don't get it, you are not any cooler then me, or any other motorist on the road. Do you know how dangerous those little suicide mobiles are??? People die every single day driving those things! They might as well be a ground ridden kamikaze! I don't know if it is just the ignorance, or the undying stupidity of the stinking guys who think they are all that. Ok that is all I've got at the moment...
SNAP! I didn't write about graduation!!! Well let me tell you all about it!!!
So first of all I just checked my grades and I somehow pulled off all A's and B's. I was so surprised! I totally did not work hard, or go to class half of the time. I guess that just goes to show that if you do your best and do all your work you won't get below a b! Well at least in my case! I am seriously so lucky! So yay, I will really get a diploma! haha
Liz and I were the first to recieve our diploma's! It was so special! And Elder L. Tom Perry spoke, then we got to shake his hand!!! He is sooo tall! The whole day was radiant! I loved every minute of it. Devin said it's my day, and it's like having an extra birthday or christmas! hehe
It was so tender, when I was shaking the faculty's hands Brother Poemen gave me a big hug. :) So special. I am so happy to be done with school, and for all those wondering, I'm working the summer, then applying to the DATC in Kaysville hopefully I'll start in like September. :) I just love life right now, I'm just working and playing, no tests or homework to concern myself with! I love this feeling!
I want to send a special shout out to the friends and family that came to support me!!! It really meant a lot to me and helped make my special day even more special!!! Here are some amazing pics of the day!
The lesson the other day in Relief society was just what I needed to hear. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason as it is, but this lesson just made me realize how true that statement is. Not only for myself, but for my ancestors and posterity!
The lesson was about people who made seemingly small and meaningless decisions that ended up being the reason we are who we are today, or affected our membership in the church, ect. It really made me realize just how blessed I truly am. I was born into the church, and raised with great values by goodly parents just doing their best. I don't know where I'd be in life right now if I wasn't a member of the church. I know I would be a good person still, but I just wonder sometimes if I didn't have such high standards to live up to would I have slid towards the side of the adversary a bit?
The reason I am in Utah right now living on my own is in large based upon my childhood, and the family life I had. All of my life my mom encouraged me to pursue my dreams, and graduate college. I am a first generation college student in my family, and out of the 27 cousins I have only 3 of us have even attended college. I guess I always wanted to prove to myself and to my family that I can do it. Another thing is my independence. I want nothing more then to be my own person! I could not wait till the day I could move out on my own, and run my own
life without crazy curfews, chores, and annoying/bratty little brothers.
Independent life is everything I hoped for, besides worrying about money it ROCKS! I can do what I want, go where I want, and be who I want to be! No one to check into, no one to impress, just me and mine! So I guess I'm sort of veering from the original point a bit, but it is 1:10 AM...
Anyways...
I truly believe that we create our own destinies. The lesson we had on Sunday not only reiterated that point in my head, but also made me realize that the decisions I make now will not only affect me, but they will affect the children I will someday have and the husband I will some day be married to. It's so great to think that life isn't just a vein walk through/ corn maze type of deal. Things matter way more then you think they do, and to never give up!
It really irks me to the nth degree when people say I hate this or that! Hate is such a strong word! Like people who say I hate country music, or sports, or shopping, or organized religion, things of that sort, or even brands like Mac, or Nike. I just don't think that it is possible to truly hate something that is comprised of so many layers!
Let's take the classic "I HATE country!" Ok come on people, have you really listened to country music lately? I mean I used to be JUST like you! When I was about 12 or younger you could have asked me any day of the week and I would have said I HATE country music and I refused to listen to it. My famous reply would always be "come on, are you serious? You actually like that twangy, my dog just died, and my girl left me sort of thing?" That response got me through some good times of negativism towards country music.
Ironically enough I happened to have a best friend named Elyse. She was IN LOVE with country music at the time. I used to make fun of her so much and be like you are so weird, then one day suddenly, as if it had been growing on me for a while I just...liked it! As much as I hated to admit my mistake I was totally wrong! I loved country!!!! Not the twangy bluegrass crap mind you, the new funky, poppy, country!
County singers sing from the heart, not just to sell records and make catchy so
ngs. So many of us can relate the the words of the great country singers! That is what I love about the genre so much! The first time I ever cried to a song was to Rascal Flatt's "Sarabeth:. Oh snap! I cried! Then to "She Didn't Have Time" I STILL get chills every time I hear that song!!! The end is just so powerful!!! And come on Alison Kraus's "When You Say Nothing At All", what girl wouldn't want to be serenaded with that song!!! :)
Anyways back to the original point, it just really bugs me when people say they hate something when really, they only see one side of said thing. The same goes for people as well. I mean I don't know how many times I have not liked someone at first, then when I got to know them I really loved them! There was this new boy in my ward, and at first I wanted NOTHING to do with him, I thought he was creepy and weird, turns out I was wrong...he's weird yes, but not so creepy! He is super outgoing and fun!
**DISCLAIMER**Alright this blog is not for the faint at heart, and might make you uncomfortable! Feel free to stop reading at any time. So here it goes:
Don't you think the world would be a much more delightful place with out ever having to pee, poop, fart, burp, throw up, cry, you know any of those necessary bodily functions that seem to get in the way of life or take up much needed and precious time??? Well having peed about 6 times in the last 2 hours I would say that I hate having to pee!!!
I don't know what it is, but when I drink a lot of water it just goes right through me! I have to pee like 4 times in a row which is ridiculous! I mean I'll go pee then 10 minutes later my bladder feels like it's going to bust open! UGH! And holy cow if it's this bad now, I don't even want to know what it will be like when I'm pregnant! May as well just walk around with my toilet attached to my backside!
I mean how frustrating! I just LOVE water so much, and when I drink not even half of the daily requirements I have to pee all the live long day!!! It just sucks!!! How can you be good, and do good when all the odds and public restrooms are against you?!?! I mean just tonight the whole latter half of the movie I was thinking hurry! I have to pee! Just end!!! UGH! So frustrating!!! I hate that feeling that you are going to burst! But then again, I love the sweet relief that follows. :) I am sure I wouldn't miss it though...
Can you believe it another 10 days has just flown by! Once again I have a list of blogs to write! haha it's like i hold off so long that I just need a good blogging purge to set my mind at ease and make my life complete! Let me just tell you a bit about my day. It was quite remarkable, full, busy, exciting, adventurous, blessed, and fruitful!
So first let me start with the irony that comprised of yesterday's eve. SOOO first of all I am so excited because I extended my gym membership to every day instead of only 3 days a w
eek for only $9. And the guy is so full of crap! He was like well you need to do it today because the offer isn't good after 8pm or something. And he was like "and I'm not lying" and really I wasn't even thinking about it until he said it, then I was like YES YOU ARE! (in my head of course!) So he's like ok come back in like a half hour with your wallet. And I was thinking...well what would you do if I came back tomorrow, but I was like well why not, so I did. ANYWHO....
So after FHE which was fun! We played kickball! That is so 6th grade and I loved every minute of it! Then we played on the marry-go-round! That's right! And swings!!! Then sat a
t the top of this giant hill that over looked the city lights! It was a perfect night! After the perfection we decided to go to Spencer's to play Rock Band (I am getting a not so cute obsession for that stupid game!!!) But alas his brother was watching a movie, so we decided to go see Juno at the dollar, and I want to see it so bad so I was excited.
Well long story short Sarah's car pretty much gave up the ghost, so we missed that movie, but ended up seeing 27 Dresses, for the third time. Lol I really do love that movie though!!! So after the movie Spence and I got into a friendly little discussion sharing our opposing oppions about the movie. IE:
He said it's so not fair that the guys have to always lie to the girl in movies, that is not reality, and all of this other stuff that he was really passionate about...so passionate that I was so scared I stopped listening, and made faces with Sarah!
I said that I loved
how it was a real life situation! There is always someone prettier than you who steals your man! And sometimes they are even close to you...a sister, or like a sister! So real!
Ok you ready? Here comes the irony. So I get this text from Rob half way through the movie saying "Dude sorry I didn't text back I was in the theater. I just saw Juno! SOO GOOD!" Wow that is so funny because if things had gone according to plan I would have been in that very same theater! WEIRD!!!!
Another weird occurrence from yesterday...So earlier I totally spaced that I didn't have work, and then I remembered when I pulled into the parking lot and it was virtually empty. So I texted by boss (or so I thought) Tim Perkins and said "we don't have work right?" So latty dauh, went about my day, assumed we didn't since he never texted back and went on with my great day. Then at like 10 I get this text from Tim Pierson! Tim is on a mission....in Ghana!! I was so confused and it just said simply "right" I was SOOOO utterly confused!
Luckily I own a blackberry so I could see what I wrote and at that moment I realized that I accidentally sent the text that was supposed to go to my boss to the wrong Tim P! I mean just look at the names, simple mistake. But the weird thing wasn't that I made a mistake, the odd thing was that I got a text back!!! What the F-bomb!?!? So I inquired more of this mysterious texter, obviously it wasn't Tim, but who had his phone? And could it be possible that it was him? I know he has been sick and being threatened with being sent home....Ah! Mind boggling.
Anywho never really got any concrete answers on that one, but isn't that just so crazy!?!?! Now I want to know where exactly in the world is Tim Pierson! So sorry if you are getting bored, you may stop here if you want, but you might regret it when you realize that you missed out on hearing about my day today!! I talked to Rob in the car about it from the moment I got in to 5 minutes after we picked up Erika in Midvale...haha
So last night I actually went home at a decent time, and by decent it was like 12:30 AM. It was so hard, I wanted to stay and hang out, I had to peel myself away! :( But it was worth it when my alarm sounded at 7:15 feeling like a dream. So I got dressed, and headed out to face the world! I subbed for Jacklin Elementary's kindergarten. First of all when I was half way there I realized that I did not allow myself time enough to be there 15 minutes early...woops! Then it took for freaking ever to find because it was hidden in the middle of all of these dead end neighborhoods.
After about the 6th wrong street I finally happened upon the right one! Then I got there and turns out the kindergarten has it's own building! Weird! So I proceeded to trek onwards. Reaching my destination, I had t
o immediately let the kids in because I was a bit late, not giving myself any time to read the lesson plan for the day! While they entered I briefed myself on the first task. It was so crazy! I relied on those 6 year olds so much! "where is the CD player?" "what do I do when this happens?" ect. haha It was fun though, but annoying because I had about 4 kids who DID not get the worksheets! And all they had to do was count to 20!!! I wanted to be like ARE you kidding me...1-2-3!!! Come on the next number is 3!!!! But of course, that was not appropriate.
I guess it was just eye opening to me because I just assume everyone knows simple things like the alphabet, numbers and writing their names. Guess you gotta start somewhere, and kindergarten seems like it would be just the right place to do so. Moving along, there were 2 girls who did not speak english and wanted help. That was difficult! Good thing I knew my numbers in Spanish! Soon I just gave up trying English, and started being like uno, dos, ????Tres! si! haha Thank goodness for Spanish 2 in high school!!!!
So Jason and Sebastion were a hand full and a half! They were crazy!!!! But other then that the kids were pretty good. I had some very odd names, like Deshawn, Eglebuo, Nercey, Eber, and that's all I can think of at the mo
ment. Recess was interesting! First of all the play area is pebbles!!! How dangerous is that?!?! I had 2 injuries in the 10 minutes we were out there! What happened to good old fashioned sand or wood chips?! Pebbles! OUCH! I had to empty my shoes after recess because I had so many rocks in them!
So the first injury was the saddest and closest to my heart. Poor shy Kevin somehow fell head/chest first off of the high monkey bars, I didn't even see it but someone came and told me. The poor kid had the wind knocked out of him, but I'll give him major props, he was tough! He didn't cry, he just looked really pitiful, hurt and sad. I was like oh my heck! He had rock dust all over his face, his hand was bleeding, and he was in a lot of pain!
I didn't know exactly what to do at that moment because I was the only teacher on recess duty so I couldn't just leave the 40 kids to wreak havoc while mending Kevin, so I just had him come sit with me the rest of recess. He was so quiet! Then when we went inside I cleaned and bandaged up the wound. It's funny because with most kids you just give them a hug and a band aid and they are good to go in like 10 minutes, but poor Kevin...all day he just sat with his head on his desk, in pain. :( It was so sad!
The second injury was this girl from the other class comes over hysterically crying and bleeding!!! Some other kid had to tell me what happened because she was so hysterical she could not speak! I still don't really know what happened, but I just sent her to her teacher's classroom, to let her deal with it. So yeah, very interesting day to say the least. There were some strange kids at that school.
Right after that I had to immediately rush to the LH. I told Patti that I could be there at 12 and the lunch was being served at 12, so it was really pointless and I had to leave at 2, but she really needed me, so I did it. It was a sweet lunch. So I got there, helped clear salads, and did dinners, then went on break! The coolest part of the lunch was that 
I got to server Elder Bednar!!! It was simply amazing. The way he looks and sounds on TV for conference is exactly who he is! It was so cool!!!
After 2:00 rolled around, I rushed over to the big JE...Jackson Elementary to head up my after school program. OH my heck, the kids were wild and crazy today! I mad
e the HUGE mistake of bringing play dough! BAD idea! Within 15 minutes the floor was covered in pink, green, and purple specks, and the kids were using balls of dough as projectiles to inflict pain upon each other. Edwardo had about 10 time outs!!! He was horrible today!!!
So after yelling and screaming at them to not play, but clean up, someone informs me that Roberto is crying. (that kid gets hurt more than anyone I know!!!! He is tough though! He cries for like 5 minutes, then gets back out there and plays again) Apparently Vincent decided it would be a brilliant idea to shove dried play dough in Roberto's eye! Yeah...he was wrong! It caused this HUGE purple bruise on Roberto's eye lid. Then Vincent had the audacity to call Roberto a baby for crying! I just lost it! I was like Vincent come here right now! Look at Roberto's eye! It's purple because of what you did! He is not a baby! You hurt him!!! And then Vincent realized what he did, and apologized, but oh my heck! KIDS!!!
Then the nice day went to pot and it started snowing and made me sad inside!! BUT then after Kelijean and I jammed to my current fav. song (check blog title ;)on the way home from work, I ate great left overs from Typhoon, and then went to see 21 with Rob and Erika. It was so intense and good! SEE IT! WELL! That is all of the excitement that has happened to me in the past 2 days! I am sorry it was sooo long!!! :)
I love blogging! I love having an outlet for all of my bottled up emotions. Usually I am really good about telling people how I feel, and what's bothering me, but sometimes when people get tired of hearing my stories over and over then I can still blog about it! Then I can always go back and read it and re-read it. It is so great!!!
For me the greatest part of writing a blog is to come up with a title! :) I love thinking of titles, I swear I will be driving down the freeway and something will just hit me! At the next light I quickly record it in my phone under a nifty little category I like to call blogs. :) So great! I LOVE blogs! I love reading blogs, writing blogs, and thinking of blogs!
Have you ever drifted apart from a friend? It sucks, but usually you don't realize it happening because you both get too busy or change and don't want to hang around each other anymore. Well that's not what this blog is about. This blog is about loosing someone near and dear to you because they get a significant other. As many of you may know Rob is one of my best friends! I love the kid to death. We talk about EVERYTHING! I have told him things no one else knows about me, and he has shared things with me that no one else on earth knows. We used to hang out all the time, and talk every day. Ever since he started dating Erika we haven't hung out alone or done anything fun. 
I mean yes we've hung out just the two of us, but it seems that whenever we hang out it's A. because Erika is working and B. because he doesn't want to do something by himself so he calls me. It really feels like I am just his back up. It sounds bad, and he knows it, but I really am. He'll call me if he needs something, or if Erika's working, and of course he truly cares about me and I know he loves me, but he loves me second to Erika. Which is also fine, I mean she's his girl friend, but it just sucks to see a valued friendship slipping away and there is nothing you can do to fix it.
Rob is probably the most interesting person I've met in SLC. He has been there for me through all of my hard times. He is like the older brother I've never had. I love the adventure that he exuberates. We've gone on some amazing trips, seen some amazing things, done some amazing things, been there and back. It's sad that it seems it is all ending. I really don't get how people can't multi task friends! UGH!
I have always had a best friend. My whole life, but because I've had a best friend I don't do EVERYTHING with that one person. I've also always had a lot of friends. I don't like to spend all of my time with one person. Maybe it's just me, but I get sick of people quickly. I like to spread my time amongst my friends. They are all great and I love them. It just makes me sad that other people can't spread their time out like that. It really just annoys me!!! I love Rob, and I love Erika, I love that they are a couple, but I don't understand, or like that they don't have time for me anymore. I mean I would even take hanging out with both of them together! But I don't even get that! :( I miss my best friend. :(:(:(:(:( 
Why is all of the chit chat surrounding me about getting married lately? We just had stake conference and they were like get married! Well duh! We all want to get married, but it is not like it's an easy decision to make!!! Good things take time! I am not going to just rush into a HUGE thing like my eternal salvation with my eyes closed! I am not going to get married just because it is the thing to do at the time! That is ridiculous! I want to go on dates, I want to serve a mission, I have things to do in my life and at this point getting married is just not what's in store for me. Of course in a few years I expect this to change, but seriously, stop pushing me!!! Th
is Utah environment is what does it! In a singles ward in Oregon it would not be like this. UGH! I just want to get up there and be like look president! We're trying! That is why we are in a singles ward! If you really want to make a change get those stupid boys to ask us out! That is really the problem! Boys just don't have guts to ask the girls they like out! WHY? I don't understand! On that note, what makes some girls more date able then others. Some people go on dates every week, some once a month, and some not at all. Why is it so variable? Complicated, and awkward! I mean if a guy is willing to pull out your chair, hold open your door, and let you go first, why can he not ask you out?
